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on a similar note, my sister and i are the strangest mix of both of our parents, i think most children mirror one parent more distinctly, we both shadowed my mother, a few brain traits of my dad but it was all mother personality, etc. then she died in '09, and the last 10 plus years has been a heavy dose of dad, and it kind of evened us out to being a even mix of both. its a good mix, im so exhausted though, work has a 3 years build up of a company vital project that is due sept 11th, sorting dads stuff, the loss, the virus... im just fucking beat.

I lost my dad May 30th. I have been pretty lost since. My dad takes the whole family on a florida beachhouse vacation each year, he goes down in march, we meet in april, all come back end of april. We all couldnt go, he was already there with corona kicked off. corona cancelled the beach house part, he was there for 2 months, decided to come back late during the lower corona time, made it back safe. We didnt see eachother while he was gone, and once back since he was 68 and im afat ass with asthma, we kept apart aside from 2 meet ups to exchange some items, and then towards the end we went to the grocery store he and my sister and i. Mind you he rode his bike in the sand on the beach 10-20 miles per day while in florida... on the 20 mile one he felt some tightness in his chest, and when he finished it took 1-2 hrs for the heart rate to go down. he thought it was odd but it didnt happen again. on another longish ride no pain but heart rate took a while to slow down... he didnt tell either of us this... so he is at home, pulling weeds and mowing grass, feels the pain again, and again heart rate slow to lower. he calls the heart doc, doc tells him to go to ER now... he reluctantly goes..... again he didnt tell us shit still, didnt even know he was at the hospital. i talked to him an hour before he went. so we find out the next day, he texts us in the AM that he is getting tests done. and then doctor calls my sister letting her know its a serious thing. so we head down, we have to take turns going in due to covid, they tell us he is moving hospitals for analysis, so she just stays in there until the move, i dont get to see him then... once moved we rotated every hour... i got to spend 2-3 hours with him, but he was fine, we bullshitted, turns out he needs a triple bypass...... wtf.... this is a guy who exercises daily, he is thin, healthy, he eats fish and chicken, brown rice, a little wine, once or twice a month pizza or burger with the rest of us... takes vitamins, fish oil, red yeast rice, etc.. low dose aspirin daily, does all the right things.. turns out all 3 arteries are 90% blocked... what. the. fuck. so they prep for surgery, it happens the next day, we cant be there, covid. so we get phone updates, 7 hr surgery.. these things are 98% successful, 200,000 done per year... the odds are good here. we are concerned but not worried or scared. he makes it out.. nurse gives updates, all is good that night, all is ok, blood pressure little low, but within normal range after that procedure, not worried. that night... my sister shows up on my porch, tears in her eyes. hes gone. one of the bypasses didnt take, they tried to get him back into surgery to fix it, he coded, they couldnt bring him back. i have never been so lonely in my life. i lost my mother to H1N1, one of 13,000 deaths int he entire country in 2009. I lose my dad, during covid, to a bypass procedure with a nearly perfect success rate. ... both before i am even 40 years old. i have no parents, i have no grandparents, i have some cousins in ohio i dont see or talk to really. I have one aunt/uncle with 3 cousins i do talk to... and my sister... so my entire family consists of 6 total people now. and i talked to my dad 5-6 times a week. that cutoff is a tough one, i have reach for the phone to call him many times. there are many many things that im having trouble processing. as my sister and i are going through the estate process, he was pretty frugal and minimalistic, but also kept everything, if that makes sense. he had not a cent of debt. he didnt decorate, not a picture on a single wall, but he had 65,000 tools it seems, and kept every piece of lexan he ever met. you need a screw? bolt? he has it. i promise its in a jar in a cabinet. labelled and in order. ever issue of boundry water journal? got it. his abacus from college? got it. his college text books? got em. going through someones stuff, makes you think youll find stuff you didnt know. not with him, he was who he was on the surface his whole life. we have until monday to be done with his belongings at his house. we never put it on the market but a buyer popped up and we went ahead with the offer. the home means nothing to us, he didnt care for it, he moved here to be with us. so that im not sad about. it wasnt our childhood home, it wasnt the one he built in ohio. it was just a place. there ahve been some tough calls on what to keep and not keep. you want to keep everything. how many thousands of times did i see that eyeglasses case on his counter? how many months did it take for him to pick that perfect wood furniture for his room? but you cant keep it all, and there is no logical reason to. so we stuck with what pulled at our heart strings. which is still probably too much to keep. im having some big issues dealing with what to do with my life going forward. life is too short to do thinghs you dont like, to work where you arent appreciated, etc... i do like what i do and i AM appreciated. so im good for now, but my industry likely has a life span. he retired at 55 or 56.... even that seems too late. work your ass off for 30 years and live for 10-12 years? seems kind of pointless. i did what i wanted and what i loved from 17-22(managed musicians, ran record label, ran teen club). from 23-35 i did what i HAD to(shitty retail and sales jobs) . now as i am 39 and hit 40 next year.. i am going to make sure i only do what i like to moving forward. I dont know what that looks like. I have a sophmore with sports aspirations and an 8th grader with video game aspirations (lol). who both will start the year schooling from home. my wife has a better job after leaving Chase, that soulless hellpit. we will be debt free by the end of the year, and i have a small income that wont ever go away if i dont make it. every day sucks, its like office space, every day i wake up is the new worst day of my life. im trying to force positivity back into the world around me. but im dead inside, i always said i was dead inside when my mom passed, but man im 100% dead inside now. my only motivation is not fucking up my kids as they become men. after that there isnt a ton of meaning in anything i do on a daily basis. you never really stop trying to impress your parents, is subconscious but its there. there is no one left to impress. having to spend a few days a week at his place cleaning and selling and packing things is brutal, its an emotional day, then takes a day or two to get head back to normal, then youre there again. its been 6 weeks of mind games with myself. that part is almost over. i dont know what to expect then. i just needed to vent all of this. i need to get into a psychologist, but i only want to do that in person, and thats not going to happen right now either... covid. with all the terrible things this virus has done and is doing, its making this already terrible process a complete nightmare.

i didnt opt out... gonna play it by ear... its been a rough year, my mental health isnt great, my health isnt great, really looking forward to some entertainment if its safe enough to do so...

man... only 73% of experts say to do it...... why even bother? and depending on context, what basis did the 3 that said it didnt matter say so... sick person wearing mask only? non sick person only? both? it seems pretty clear that the studies have sick person cut down on spread at 30-60% and healthy person blocking with mask at 15-40%, even at the low numbers youre approaching cutting spread IN HALF.

meeehhh.... the teams make jack shit off ticket sales in the scheme of things, even if, IF the team was sold out to season ticket holders, thats about 5 million in ticket revenue and the concessions are shit, merch is shit, cause no one comes, while 5 mil is a pile of cash to us all, its less than a single percent of the revenue brought in by the teams on average. the value for teams to not just evaluate talent, which hard knocks has shown some of that goes on, but honestly it seems teams know aside from 3-5 guys whos making it..but the team chemistry and trial and error of plays, formations, i notice QBs try to make certain throws and see if itll work, lots of starters look like dick in preseason, they are testing their limits, or plays, or throws, etc. not to mention the injury trial run, guys coming from small school or older guys, its tough to find out week 1 their body cant take it when you could ahve found out preseason week 1. tons of value for the teams, if the teams were banking on the preseason they wouldnt have been pushing for more regular season games, but the revenue difference is INSANE. also the TV revenue for a preseason game is shit, local networks, bengals get CBS or FOX or NBA cincinnati money, not CBS money. they dont even bother paying real announcers, you get the local scrubs.

ah, i thought this thread was going to be about what my life is filled with based on the title.

Typically I give a coach 3 years anyway, 1 year to see what you got, 1 year to shed guys yu dont want and second draft, and third year you have 3 drafts, two years of your guys in tow, etc. So i wasnt going to panic if this year was mediocre. I think the talent on the team is a roughly .500 team. But now, with rookie camp, offseason workouts, mini camp, all being flushed down the toilet, a rookie starting qb (which already worries me) the fact that we are going to have 11-12 new starters on the team, and losing all of the valuable offseason benefits i think sets us back a bit further than most teams. The AJ greens of the world arent going to suffer, but losing time with burrow is a loss, the all rookie linebackers will, the several free agents will, I just am not sure how much, or if theyll be making up the lost time once offseason does kick off. thoughts?

....im not 1000% sure if youre joking, or if im stupid, but hasnt it been the 21st century for 20 years? the 20th century was the 1900s, century = 100, 20 x 100 = 2000 so jan 1st 2000 was officially the 21st century.... yes?

the bengals dont pay for jersey changes, there is not a penny spent on such a thing. in fact a change would be an increase in revenue as people would replaced their previous AJ green witha new one, etc. so i guess in your scenario you would be really hoping they change jerseys.

those are always pretty hard to find any cheaper, usually excluded from sales like they were this weekend, especially if looking for burrow, his stuff is listed as a "special event item" probably for the whole year.

testify

https://www.nflshop.com/cincinnati-bengals/mens-cincinnati-bengals-joe-burrow-nike-white-2nd-alternate-vapor-limited-jersey/t-69151348+p-258724930343+z-8-1463428817 BURROW COLOR RUSH LIMITED.. well so ir black and orange limited... the first non silk screened crap jersey is up! $150 "This is a special event item. Orders containing this product will be shipped separately. This item will be shipped no later than Tuesday, November 17th."

so i just noticed..... on the game burrow jerseys..... "This is a pre-order item. This item will ship no later than Friday, September 25." on nflshop.com. what. in. the. fuck. we all know china makes these jerseys for nike/nfl. i order all the time from china for work. i can have a sketched item on a napkin of a product turned into CAD drawings, samples cut, sent samples to me, make adjustments to cad, redo samples, send to me, approve design, and manufactur 500,000 units, and have them in hand by the end of june with no rush fees at all... what in the fucking hell would have to be happening for the NFL not to be able to have jerseys for 5 months?

they are pretty bad

thats a pretty downer prediction, even vegas has us at 5.5 wins and heavily getting action on the over.

unrelated really... jerseys take nothing away from the games either.

fair enough. i recall Zac taylor interview he was asked if there was a jersey update coming and he said he wasnt really focused on that maybe some small details here or there and moved on from it.. so i wasnt sure what to expect.

sadly something could be learned from the steelres drafts... 9/11 picks are defense and hella linebackers..

i agree its less than stellar.. pats not exactly killing it either.. tho they tend to not have one sometimes..

that definetly makes sense... makes more sense since they are NEW jerseys. it just seems odd that they wouldnt have like 500 of every size blank bengals jerseys sitting around from the last 8 years... but maybe they arent that wasteful and a 2 month supply shutdown hurt both new and old style jerseys..

that article is from 2012, when nike took over.. if there is no change, then the supply chain shouldnt be dry in the first place i wouldnt think? Agree with that as well, last change came the year palmer became the starter. aside from the nike changeover.. which was subtle. and 8 years ago.

has anything been reported on this? in trying to hunt down a Limited or Elite jersey for burrow for my kid, ALL custom bengals limited and elite are out of stock, and the only ones in stock are dalton and green, both of which are on sale. Now the teams who HAVE got new jerseys already, 6 teams, i looked up the Tampa Bay ones, and they have the new ones in Game, Limited and Elite jerseys. If the bengals jerseys werent changing at all, then theyd still be in stock, right? how could they be out? just randomly stopped making them? Is there anything new about the "game" burrow and higgins jerseys at all? i assumed not.. but that begs the question, why release those if something is gonna change? am i just oblivious and this is 100% not happening or 100% happening later in the offseason? #jerseygate2020

good riddence... id say thats easily one of the worst first round picks in the last 20 years but. this list has some duds on it...

so because he was a nice guy, we should have been elated to have a QB who couldnt get the job done for roughly a decade? Fans want to see their team succeed. i do not care what he did in the city, his life, his time, his money, if he helped people, awesome, has nothing to do with me. Whats most infuriating about dalton, is he actually has a big of an ego, and he really thinks he is a top QB. in his mic'd up playoff games, in his press conferences. you see real leader QB's in a press conference, like brady, rodgers, luck, even palmer did it, they could throw 4-5 TD,s lose 40-42, and come out and say "i need to play better, i need to make more plays" and andy would come out after throwing 1-2 picks and no scores in a playoff game and say "we need to play better" like dude the defense scored a TD, the defense held the texans to 19 total points. after the game he is told JJ watt called him the red rider bb gun, and in about as embarrassing of a comment as you can possibly make he said "thats uncalled for, there are kids watching" he is a walking talking butt fumble. that comment about jj watts comment, the multiple backfield screen pass interceptions, including breaking his own thumb making a tackle after one of them, the diving untouched fumble in the playoffs. there is nothing to have pride in with andy dalton. why would anyone want 9 years of average QB play? after repeated proof that he cannot win anything that matters? id like to think i am a pretty big bengals fan, i had season tickets for 13 years, several of which i as across the country, i had this place going for like 16 years now.. and andy drove me to not even watch FOOTBALL anymore. there was no reason to watch, there was no chance of winning a playoff game, and fans got tired of being in QB purgatory. good enough to not get cut, bad enough to never win. thats where us... "haters" are coming from. andy dalton made football not fun to even watch, and he thought he was king shit. he bitched publicl about being benched, as if if he was a top prospect someone wouldnt have worked out a deal for him in 1 day? if aaron rodgers got benched and the team gave him permission to seek a trade at 4pm with a 5pm deadline, the packers would be fielding 8 deals and one would have gone through. he is dlusional. he AGAIN blamed the bengals for his "late release" for not finding a team to start... his agent and his family needs to stop lyig to him, he is a starter on a terrible team, he is a backup at best otherwise.... 32 nfl teams agreed he isnt better than their current starter.. that list includes: GARDNER MINSHEW!!, 40 yr old phillip rivers, ryan tannehill, derek carr, tyrod tailer, trubisky, cousins, and so on... the OC who picked him in the draft who has gardner minshew, didnt offer him a deal...in favor fo gardner minshew.. and he is out there blaming the bengals... andy dalton can kiss my ass.... the bengals game him a job, paid him 83 million to be mediocre, gave him a ton of weapons, and got NOTHING in return... IMO...